Life's Illusions

No no no no no no no no no no 

This can’t be happening, this is the worst moment of my life. 

You can’t be doing this to me. 

I’m a fucking wreck. 

Yesterday was my 5 month-iversary with my boyfriend. It was also the last day we’re gonna spend together for awhile. Anyway, we went to downtown disney to hang out for a few hours. First we went to build-a-bear to make our babies (: We made 2 twin bears and named them Abigail and Nathaniel; they’re beautiful! He made Nathaniel and gave him to me and I made Abigail and gave her to him. After, we took pictures and went to watch contagion. We were about to go to the big gazebo but there was a ‘fairytale wedding’, so we went to the smaller one. We exchanged gifts and hugged and kissed. He took a shoe box and made slots for every month of notes for the next year. He wrote me a month full of notes to read while he was gone. It’s actually pretty neat, he also printed out pictures of us and put it on a key chain for me. He got me a pencil and he gave me his giant sweater. I got him a decorated shoe box! Haha. Inside I wrote random words, phrases, conversations, pertaining to us. I also wrote him notes,  made a key chain, herseys kisses, twix, and a photo of me. It was nearing 2:30pm and I had to leave for a Key Club project. It was so depressing. We hugged for a long long time and I started crying on his shoulder. It’s hard knowing I can’t walk a few minutes to see him. It sucks how he won’t be picking me up after school anymore. I can’t hug him, hold his hand, or kiss him. No more wild, fun adventures with him for a while. 

I mooses you honey, I hope college is fun for you! (: 

Whenever you walk around my house, I can’t help but feel that you belong here” 

Interesting, right? Haha, 6/17/11, 2 month-iversary, my boyfriend took his mom’s old Costco card and took me there to eat xD We walked around and had samples, everything is good until his friend, Steven, called saying something was wrong forcing my bf to leave and go home. He came back later and he went to buy me food (: Then we went off to the park only to see Christian ]:< we walked around, talked, laughed. Then he got another phone call and had to leave. So I decided to get my dress while he was gone. He left, I got my dress and heels and he came back. He took me to change at the Council building in front of school then we decided to go to the exercise park next to the library and there he is again. CHRISTIAN D:< Lol but anyway we left to go to MESA banquet, which was very small and spontaneous. It was a lot of fun. I got spun around a lot that day (x 

I spent my morning relaxing and getting ready, then went to Brian’s house to drop off my dress, and walked to West Haven Park to have a picnic with Scott (: 
After, we walked back to Brian’s house, changed and went to Kbbq (SHS KC Banquet) to meet up with everyone (Me, Scott, Brian, Kathy, Sarah, Irving, Truc, Michael, Amy, Anthony). The place was pretty packed so we left to buy Brian gum, but got distracted by King Billiard’s, the guys played till it was time to wait for the limo. Jonathan was running late to pick up clothes for a Key Club event (summerfest) and Kathy was just running late. When they finally came we headed off. The limo ride was really fun with Brian’s music blasting. We finally arrived, took pictures, and checked in. We ate, took pictures, danced, talked, and basically had a great time. The night was almost over and Scott and I were looking every where for the rest of our group. We went and had our final slow dance and rushed everyone to the limo. We took Sarah and Irving home then got dropped off at School. I think the best part of the night was the limo ride back. Brian gave us a short light show with the gloves I bought him and I really enjoyed the company in the limo. What a great way to end the night. 
Oh and the hook on my dress broke off (x oh wells